what future awaits?

Listening to: Meant to live - Switchfoot
Feeling: confused

i forgot to blog this.. and this has a very big impact on what awaits for me in the future...
but before that, a little segway... yesterday my sister Jessi and i went to mass, as usual at NOLC, and i noticed, for the nth time this fine looking young gentleman... he's so dreamy!!!! let's just call him Josh (not his real name).. he always looks decent and presentable, and he's very good looking, always looks fresh and never misses mass. and after every mass he makes "mano" to his mom... haaaay, love ko na sya! but i don't even know his name.. haha

VS

So goin back, during the mass, we were sitted next to Tita Baby, (RJ's mom). After the mass, tita Baby, who happens to be a teacher in Ateneo asked me if i wanted to teach as a career... and i go hmmmm... i asked for details, qualification and the like. honestly i'm not so much into the compensation. anyone who knows me well would understand what i mean, but i give value to my self-actualization. she said i need not be an education grad, like she is, and i could take educ units while teaching. she says they hire grads from UP and ADMU.

it gave me like a back-to-the-future kinda view of life... i know i've always wanted to work in an environment like Hyatt Hotel and Casino Manila, but frankly i don't see myself working my ass off and seeing myself as the future director of marketing or sales around 10 years from now. i'm sure i'm not going to have a healthy family life with all the hotel operations frenzy taking up all my time... i've always dreamt of seeing my kids (yikes) grow. moreover, although i know i'm gonna be a successful careerwoman someday (naks.. confident!) i've always readied myself to quit my job if need be-with the assumption that my would--be husband can send my girls to Assumption and my boys to Ateneo. then again i saw myself as an entrepreneur... i've always wanted that, to be like my dad. w/ entrepreneurship, you can always become a good parent, wife, friend. but then this new window of opportunity was opened to me, and i begin to think, i can be a good home maker as a teacher... and this could just be the break i need to achieve my dreams of getting higher education, MBA perhaps.... or even law.. haaaayy.. so dilemma of a lifetime... why did this just come to me now?!

Well anyway, i gave it deep thought, maybe i could work for the tourism industry (hotel and/or events) then perhaps go to education after 2-3 years, so at least i'll experience both worlds and be more knowledgeable. but one thing's for sure, i'm not teaching kids younger than 3rd grade, no-sir-ee!