Lucky me!

Mood: Delightful
Listening to: Makita kang muli - (compu shop BMG)

(had to print an emai asapl... sayang ang net time.. break to blog)

So delightful. i woke up this morning dead tired because of the requirements i had to complete. almost powerless, i tried to get up to shut off the head-bangin noise emanating from my trusty, pink, heart-printed alarm clock that i strategically situated on my dresser. i caught a glimpse of the dark, dreadful rings around my eyes.... i almost cried because of this "shallow matter.. then it hit me. Deym! I'm still ME! the same proud, conceited, bitchy cry-baby that i am.. whew! whatta relief! Even in my most fucked up state-- tears and all-- i remain gracefull with a positive disposition

Unlike this person i know...

I can't imagine how someone can continue to live on the face of the earth that he claims to abhor. well, i'm not surprised. this person has threatened the world with his suicidal tendencies... but alas! to no avail. guess he doesn't have the balls to do so.

he says i cry over spilt milk, "shallow stuff" blah blah, yada yada.. yeah, i absolutely do! thank you for that information.. and what does that make you?

i actually admire non-conformists. they have the guts to stand out and be different.. but some people like this person, they just over do it.. up to the point that he's just showing off how much angst he has against the world and all its inhabitants.. (and shhh.... he thinks he's so cool! and i think he's P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C)... well, let's leave him to whatever makes him happy.. i even regret giving him the time of the day.. and i swear this will be the last time i'll spend my precious time on that entity.

ps... he says: "i'm better than the rest of you"... like who are you even talking to? those single-celled amoeba? tell you what.. i'm sure they don't care! :D however, no hard feelings.. i still hope god bless and enlighten him.

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as for the other updates about my life.... i was able to talk to M***** over at YM... well, i hate it when people talk as if nothing happened when everybody knows that there had been issues. well, i handled it well, i think. i don't have to pretend about not feeling this way or that. i was stiff and that's how i felt. he was actually being a little too defensive about something i wasn't even interested about... haaayy... when will this end? i'm tired of it.

i know i'm vulnerable to these matters as i write [weakness, as grace and i call it] and i'm trying my best not to screw up as i had (drunk confessions).... and i don't think i did.