new lay out

Mood: Zzzzzzzzzz......
Listening to: Only Time - Enya

no biggie.. i just made a new lay out for the Valentine season... hehe... since i was forcing jem to edit her x'mas snowflakes :D mwah

dedications of a lifeless soul

Mood: Sob*sob
Listening to: Baby I love your way - Bob Marley

adik ako. slit my throat and find coffee flowing from my veins, cut up my lungs and find it pitch black. i feel like a lifeless, soul-less mass floating around. i'm beginning to miss my bed. i haven't had enough time to even sleep. what's funny is that i'm beginning to get used to it.

TO MY BOYLETS/BOYTOYS/ BOY BAWANGS (if you feel that you belong to any of these...)

sori.. this isn't just one of my priorities at the moment.. if you're sending me text messages and i'm not replying... well.. rest assured, i'm receiving them.

TO MY MOM

You know i love you and i know that all you want is the best for me. but forcing me to take 24 units jst to be able to march this march--i'm doing this more for you than for myself. i'm really having a difficult time, hurting myself in the process. don't worry.. i don't hate you. but i'm making this sacrifice because i know it will make you happy. i hope you appreciate it.

TO MY GIRLS

but of course, i always have time for you.... you are always free to bug me when you need a tearfest mate. :D

TO MY GROUPMATES

sori for breaking down... i'm exhausted and i'm not enjoying what i'm doing. gimme something else to do.. something more intelligent. in fact, we all should learn a lesson from this incident. lalo nitong na-spark ang competitiveness sakin. and i'm promise, here and now, i'm not gonna be some stuck up airhead in the future.

TO MY CHARMING PRINCE

ano ba anong petsa na? tanga ka ba talaga at naligaw ka na ng landas? sana magkatagpo nman tayo one of these days... sana pag gradweyt ko di ba.

TO MY DAD

i may be ** years old.. but i'm glad i can still come to you with tears in my eyes. i'm still your baby. and you're still be my #1 guy... if only all the guys can be like you.

Toxic Again

Mood: Hungry
Listening to: Melt with You - Jason Mraz

once again i'm toxic.... haaayy... i have exams everyday.. til tuesday! just taking 5 mins off to blog..

thanx to momma jemzie for accompanying me to my school hop in mandaluyong last wednesday. as usual, thesis nanaman po. and of course for the coffee talk. mag globe ka na!

the girls of whaloo

Mood: Giddy
Listening to: Lady- Modjo

the girls of whaloo (front) sweet, jem, trina, hersh

(back) moi, sheena, trish

it's Whaloo's Anniversary (3rd street, beside San Beda College) so even in the middle of the week.... lalabas ang mga pasaway.

have you ever met the most diverse yet very alike group of girls? magkakaiba pero magkakapareho.. galing sa iba't ibang school, iba ibang course, pati batch iba iba rin.

isa lang siguro ang pinagkapareho namin... lahat ng mga taong minahal namin at nanakit sa amin ay miyembro ng isang organisasyong Order of De Molay .

so diba.. kung susuriin... sila sweet, sheena & hersh paksyon ni B****, kami ni Trish kay N****, kami ni trina kay M*****, at kaming lahat kay A****... and the list could go on forever... napakasayang samahan di ba...

dapat nag sasabunutan kame, nagsasampalan at nagbabangayan. but no. mas malakas ang pagkakaibigang namamagitan sa amin. at in fact, ang mga lalakeng nanakit na mga ito pa marahil ang dahilan kung bakit kame ay magkakasama ngayon, kung bakit sinasalo namin ang isa't isa, kung bakit nandyan kami upang patahanin ang isa saming umiiyak at kung bakit namin mahal ang isa't isa.

salamat sa inyo brods, tinuruan nyo kameng mag mahal at bumangon muli. at higit sa lahat, binigyan nyo kame ng isang samahan na totoo at ubod ng saya.. at san ka pa? ang gaganda namen di b?

kaninong kamay ito?

Chix Unite!

Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Classic Comfort album-again

have you ever met some biatch who previously dated or is currently dating your guy or your ex?

must have been really tough trying to fake a smile huh? well today i had a date and a beer with that biatch, and i love her to bits. it's Trish, from bethel 1, iojd.

with trish i didn't have to fake a smile, i had one of the best conversations about what it is like to be a contemporary woman. imagine, this was our first time to actually speak to each other but it feels like we've known each other for ages. we have a lotta things in common which is probably why we meshed well.

well all i gotta say is that N**** sure does have an exquisite taste in women, too bad he's stupid enough to let go of two of probably the best women he probably set eyes on...

well, i've always said: Manghinayang ang dapat manghinayang!

You Are a Frappucino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet Your caffeine addiction level: low

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

several blog moments

Mood: Sappy
Listening to: Classic Comfort Album (love it, classic/chill) - i stole it from my unc's closet

ayt, aside from this being a momentous moment as it is my 100th blog post, hell, this weekend has been crazy-fun-bewildering-sappy.

yesterday i met up with Martin around 11am to pick up my survey form that he collected for me for my thesis. woohoo.. salamat talaga sa kanya. he knows how grateful i am. i was supposed to treat him to "coffee and cream". but alas, due to time constraints and a meeting i needed to attend at 1, we didnt have time for coffee. {note to self: starbucks coupon only valid for the month of january}. before he took brought me to the SR, we first took their car to Ford Otis to have something fixed.

I arrived at the SRT a few minutes past one pm. Nice, there was only 2 of us there. Brigette, a newly initiated sis has been there since 12.30. poor dear. so i invited her for lunch at ministop along remedios ave, where we had a hotdog sandwich.

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Jemma's Shoe incident

i was exchanging messages w/ ms. zafra as to her whereabouts. as i was commencing my meal.. enjoying every morsel as i have missed both breakfast and lunch (w/ an exception of a coffee-flavored ice cream), she texts me the most hilarious distress call- (sori sis, love you) . she says:

"sis, distress, nasira ang sandals ko, andito ako sa 711
P.Gil!"

i challenge anyone reading this message not to laugh and think of a logical solution for this predicament. i'm so sorry for jem, but then i couldn't help but laugh and totally space out. i asked her what i could do and she told me to deliver her shoes (kept at the gown closet of the SRT) to where she's currently situated. so quickly i swallowed my sandwich :'( and rushed to the aid of a sister in the most incredible distress.. on the way back to the SRT, we bump into Trina at talaga bang kelangang astig mag lakad?! hehe and then rescue poor jem.

after a few minutes and a jeepney ride, we find her alone next to a tindera of kendi and yosi at the corner of taft and p.gil. according to her, that was the exact location where her sandals broke.. and she never moved an inch.. bwahaha.. :D napaka-cute po nya.

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The lighter side of Life

~Idiots Welcome!~

On the side, we were entertained by Ren ren, everybody's sweetheart.. hehe.. mga hirit na walang kamatayan. ang favorite ko... "alam nyo ba ang Power of Two?-- ung kinanta ng IN-DIE-GO girls"

at ang: station of Pa-chu-trisim, represented by the color In-die-go.

At kamusta naman ang "goose assembly" ni Trina? ang mga kabataang machismis at pangalan namen sa dib-dib, ulong kalbo at pundya ng pantalon ni ren ren. anjan din syempre ang falling star kong sinalo ng braso ni jemma, ang backless ni hershel at ang malapintor na "blouse" ni ren ren.

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Where great minds meet

**WARNING:**

Only intellectuals allowed beyond this point...

or be bored to death..

Have you read The Da Vinci Code & Angel's and Demons? over and over author Dan Brown has mentioned the organization of Freemasonry. He's mentioned that this is an organization which include some of the greatest minds in history and even contemporary politics, science, literature, arts and in almost every aspect society.

Months ago, i bump into Raul Canon of Primera Luz Filipinas Lodge #69, at a function of Ambrosio Flores Chapter, Order of DeMolay where we assisted with the registration. I learned that he's also a graduate of UP Diliman with a bachelor's degree in English and is currently enrolled in San Beda College of Law. As i watched him from a distance, little did i imagine-much more anticipate what was about to happen next. He sits next to me and initiates the most awe-striking, jaw-dropping casual conversation- if you can even consider it a casual conversation. God he spoke perfect english w/c somehow required me to answer in the same tongue.. hmph.. thank god i pulled it thru. i forgot exactly what our topic was, but he left me with a dry throat, a pounding heart and a quizzical brain. i apologize for the term, but i have to say it felt orgasmic-- intellectually of course.. he did say he enjoys an "intellectually arousing" conversation.

Now like a Deja Vu, with a cranial capacity depleted from the previous week and drained from IM'ing CarloYosi til 3am saturday morning, i was again blessed (or cursed) by the goddess of wisdom with yet another intellectually stimulating exchange of thoughts. This time, it is Khris Albano of Dalisay Lodge. As usual, i noticed him previously for his stance, mainly physical, Hersh and Trina have been talking to him and we were just there, spying nearby. Then he sits next to jem and me, and like a dream come true talks to us. Beginning the conversation with normal introductions, name, place of origin, affiliations, etc. then he begins asking us what our dreams were. To get rich, we answered confidently, don't we all?

He then challenges us on what our plans are to get to that dream. I tell him what my plans are, work, probably start a business at events management, probably teach, probably pursue higher education- spared him the details about marrying an old, rich guy though.. hehe.

He asks whether i believe i could get rich with that. i was of course clueless. i insisted that i wanted to pursue a life in business that in employment. and although unsure which particular industry, i say events management because at this point that is the only business i'm familiar with (aside from my dad's w/c was never appealing to me).

He then asks us to define Assets & Liabilities. as best as we could, we try to give our best recollection of our accounting terms. He says taking after Kiyosaki's Rich Dad, Poor Dad. He defines assets as anything that puts money into one's pocket, and liabilities are anything that takes money away from your pocket. **fast forward

He asks us to define wealth and by how we measure it. He shares that it is Time. Wealth therefore is measured by how much time one can survive after she/he stops working. and then makes us ponder about what sort of "asset" will indeed make us wealthy. and gives us this matrix.

employment is self-explanatory. self employment is owning a business and working for it-like being a doctor, as opposed to business where you own a business and money comes in w/o you working for it, for example: a doctor owning a clinic and have other doctors earn money for him. the fourth is investment, such as real estate, a house or apartment, where one generates income from rent, to then pay for the expenses (such as ammortization, taxes) that these investments may incur. bottom line, you don't need money to make money. **fast forward..

i could elaborate more on how much he's inspired me to better my life, but my neurons are betraying me as i write.. i've been on this post for literally 2 hours now. (YM'ing, eating, cosmo-ing, et al on the side).. i'll be giving meself a rest for mental breakdown i'm about to face for the coming week.

If you are a guy, hot as fire and have the ability to ignite my flair for an intellectual discussion such as the aformentioned subjects above, don't hesitate to message me.. i love you already!

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As for today, i've been subscribing to one of my favorite pastime, tearfest! marts lent me a full-blown tearfest dvd, containing 6 heavy tear-inducing flicks like The Notebook, a walk to remember, if only.. love em. i watched "if only" earlier, hence the sappy mood. i can't wait to fall in love.. hehe.. but only after i've found my steady ground as a self-supporting, young, urban professional.. nice!

The week that was... Thesis Tantrums

Mood: Exhausted
Listening to: Be like that - 3 doors down

thank god my week is over... my eyes can't take anymore stress than it has at this moment.. :(

i just submitted via email my book review on my strategic management subject. just finished gulping down my iced coffee..

my thesis partner is sick and i've been doing much of the work. ok i know he's sick, but am i being too cruel for even complaining? i've been doing most of the leg work (meaning walking the cruel streets of mendiola under the heat of the afternoon sun) , he's doing the admin (supposedly doing follow up calls), the least he can do is to update me.. but does he? i update him with what's going on in my share of work, and it's not easy! :( i'm loaded with 24 units, he's only got 15 (or is it 12).. i think it's kinda unfair..

last wednesday i had an exam in the morning, i tried to manage my time by studying half of the evening and trying to finish my book for the review i just submitted. i go to school with my head afloat. my thesis partner texts me, cancels our thesis trip. i cant let that happen, we are already lagged as it is, no time to dilly-dally. i try to go out to mendiola alone.

i text my friends from the u-belt area to seek some help. friend #1 has an exam, #2 is in ortigas, #3 also has an exam, #4 isnt available. finally as it closes in my exam before lunch, out of desperation, i text martin. he wasn't the first on my list mind u, but i was beginning to be hopeless.

he replies just before noon. and tells me that he's got an exam at 3. i immediately rush to the nearest train station and began my quest to mendiola. honestly i appreciate that he was willing to help me on 1) such late notice, 2) even if i wasn't the friendliest bitch (to him) the past few days, 3) even if he had 2 exams he hasn't studied for.

so there we went, school hopping under the heat of the afternoon sun. and he wasnt complaining. one school asked me to come back early next day for the results, and he agreed that he would pick up the results for me, which he did.

but there's a catch.. i need to treat him to coffee and cream. thank you starbucks planner for the freebies.. that's not much price to pay for his efforts, i mean, he's doing more than my partner! haaay.. :(

You Are a Fun Girl!

You are all about having fun - and you don't need to drink to have a good time Sure, you've thrown back more than a few every so often But getting totally stupid and wasted is not your style You're the life of the party, by keeping everyone laughing and smiling

Are You a Party Girl?

so much for fun... i ain't getting any!!!!! :,( i'm the ultimate nerd.... haaaayyyy... kill me now!!!

From the pages of my planner

Mood: Frenzied
Listening to: Una - Sponge Cola

I'm really tired. Seriously. i've a lot of things in my mind right now and would welcome death with open arms just in case it comes with in this week. this could very well be one of my 24-unit-frenzy-week.

Jan 16, Mon: Group presentation T115 -content was sent to me eve of the previous night, i worked on this til 3am..
Group Meeting w/ Mentor @ circle C -libre ni sir pong, we stayed there til 9 bloody PM
Jan 17, Tue: Group Meeting
Jan 18, Wed: Long Exam T153
STS Outline
Thesis school hopping. Destination: Manila
Jan 19, Thu: my self-declared no sleeping day
Jan 20, Fri Due: Book report T198
Due: content STS report
Market Analysis: Speed Dating... ahem

next week, i have reporting and exam in my favorite subject:STS

On top of that, my group is organizing 2 events, an alumni homecoming event for the 27th of January in Makati , and a speed dating event probably on the first week of Feb. this of course needs my marketing expertise (translation: phone calls and company visits)-which doesn't come easy when pressed for time. when exactly am i gonna do this?!

I've masterfully perfected the art of sleeping, reading and eating in transit. I'm really exhausted and havent been getting much sleep. i probably wont blog too. *sniff

I would like to thank my sponsors:
Body Shop, Maybelline and Beauty Bar: for continuously making me fabulous despite those terrible dark circles around my eyes and zits popping out here and there
Marlboro gold: o yes, i've once again joined the fumigation circle because of stress and missed meals (oh yes, including breakfast.. :C) hopefully i'd quit again after this month
Nescafe and Starbucks: for its aroma and caffeine content
Sunflower crackers, Oreos and Ritz Cheese: for keeping me alive, i so enjoy it especially when eaten in a UP-Katipunan jeep, or when snuck in the library under the nose of Ate Ping.

Moral lesson: don't be lazy. don't procrastinate. do not make your first 3 (or 4 or more) years in college a holiday to suffer your last 24 units.

Eklavu ng mga Gurangers at Chenes ng mga Kiddos

Mood: sleepy
Listening to: nothing again

My weekend? oh it was lovely! I simply spent it in the sunshine city of Antipolo...
Saturday evening: i was forced to attend a social gathering of the old rich people in antipolo.. with old i meant: families who have dominated the elites of antipolo for at least 40 years, simultaneously, majority of the guests being aged 60 and above. 70th birthay party of my mom's barkada's mom (follow?). i reiterate, i was forced by my mom who wanted me to grant her the "bragging rights" of having a daughter from UP... c'mon mom, let's not make a big deal out of this, can we? never the less, i surrender.

there, i dine with 5 matronas (my grandmother included), my mom in her 40s, my kid cousin (11) who insisted to come because of the food, and one handsome young gentleman about my age. His name Mark G. , (for privacy purposes, i shall not reveal his last name) and he was the only person who made my evening-- that was before he took the hand of one of the matronas and began dancing swing with her.. Deym. DI. o well... so much for a lovely evening.

Sunday i run a Voltes 5 marathon. 12 episodes all in all, before i attended my cousin's 8th birthday party. So there just anyone i know celebrating his/her late teen/early 20s birthday huh?

Makita kang Muli, Grimace

Mood: In love
Listening to: Makita kang muli - Sugarfree

yes i'm sooo in love with the song!!! even if it belongs to the sound track of the teleserye of Panday. well... i'd automatically fall in love with the person who'd sing this song to me..

Makita Kang Muli
Sugarfree

Bawat sandali ng aking buhay
Pagmamahal mo ang aking taglay
San man mapadpad ng hangin
Hindi magbabago aking pagtingin
Pangako natin sa Maykapal
Na tayo lamang sa habang buhay
Maghintay

Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig
Maghintay ka lamang, Ako’y darating
Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin makita kang muli,
Makita kang muli

Puso’y nagdurusa nangungulila
Iniisip ka ‘pag nag-iisa
Inaalala mga sandali
Nang tayo ay magkapiling
Ikaw ang gabay sa aking tuwina
Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw
Tanging ikaw

Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig
Maghintay ka lamang, ako’y darating
Pagka’t sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso
Lahat ay gagawin
Makita kang muli, makita kang muli
Makita kang muli

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i bought a swiss ball yesterday... oops, not exactly for work out but to make it like a bean bag for my room. it's so cuuttte!! :D i felt like a little girl with a new Barbie. am i shallow or what? haha... well.. this will be my new best friend. i gave it a name: Grimace... try to guess why.

grimace, my swiss ball :D

Happy Birthday to my dearest Gwacee

love yah girlfriend!!! stay pretty!!! print this and be entitled to one pair of hot pants... :D

Lucky me!

Mood: Delightful
Listening to: Makita kang muli - (compu shop BMG)

(had to print an emai asapl... sayang ang net time.. break to blog)

So delightful. i woke up this morning dead tired because of the requirements i had to complete. almost powerless, i tried to get up to shut off the head-bangin noise emanating from my trusty, pink, heart-printed alarm clock that i strategically situated on my dresser. i caught a glimpse of the dark, dreadful rings around my eyes.... i almost cried because of this "shallow matter.. then it hit me. Deym! I'm still ME! the same proud, conceited, bitchy cry-baby that i am.. whew! whatta relief! Even in my most fucked up state-- tears and all-- i remain gracefull with a positive disposition

Unlike this person i know...

I can't imagine how someone can continue to live on the face of the earth that he claims to abhor. well, i'm not surprised. this person has threatened the world with his suicidal tendencies... but alas! to no avail. guess he doesn't have the balls to do so.

he says i cry over spilt milk, "shallow stuff" blah blah, yada yada.. yeah, i absolutely do! thank you for that information.. and what does that make you?

i actually admire non-conformists. they have the guts to stand out and be different.. but some people like this person, they just over do it.. up to the point that he's just showing off how much angst he has against the world and all its inhabitants.. (and shhh.... he thinks he's so cool! and i think he's P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C)... well, let's leave him to whatever makes him happy.. i even regret giving him the time of the day.. and i swear this will be the last time i'll spend my precious time on that entity.

ps... he says: "i'm better than the rest of you"... like who are you even talking to? those single-celled amoeba? tell you what.. i'm sure they don't care! :D however, no hard feelings.. i still hope god bless and enlighten him.

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as for the other updates about my life.... i was able to talk to M***** over at YM... well, i hate it when people talk as if nothing happened when everybody knows that there had been issues. well, i handled it well, i think. i don't have to pretend about not feeling this way or that. i was stiff and that's how i felt. he was actually being a little too defensive about something i wasn't even interested about... haaayy... when will this end? i'm tired of it.

i know i'm vulnerable to these matters as i write [weakness, as grace and i call it] and i'm trying my best not to screw up as i had (drunk confessions).... and i don't think i did.

Hindi ko ma-gets

Mood: Enraged
Listening to: Pink is the color - K&M (thanks caprice!)

Hindi ko ma-gets...

... kung bakit may mga taong nakakarealize lang ng value ng isang bagay (o tao) pag wala na ito.

... kung bakit nag tetext pa sya.

... kung bakit kahit mahal ang make up ay bili pa rin ako ng bili.

... kung bakit masarap ang kape.

... kung bakit may mga taong nagbubukas ng kanilang mga bibig ngunit hindi maintindihan ng nakararami ang nais nilang ipahiwatig (???) di ko rin na-gets

... kung bakit may mga taong sadyang walang magawang matino sa buhay nila at nakakahanap ng kaligayahan sa pambabastos ng ibang tao.

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Eto ang mga palagay ko...

... siguro na-realize nya na mas masaya pa ring kasama ang taong mas maraming fringe benefits.

... dahil free text ang Globe at gusto nyang sulitin ang txtnonstop50

... because i'm worth it! :D

... dahil ito ang nakatatak na sa utak ko.

... kasi bulol sila.

... ayon kay Cappy: "to make other people look so much better" and i totally agree! :D

One Liners

Mood: Exhausted
Listening to: Make Luv (men like to party) - Room 5

school hopping: Poveda, Lourdes and La Salle Greenhills for our thesis...we walked from Ortigas to Shaw!!! :( my heels gave up on me.

i gave my room and bathroom a total make over... :D woo hoo!

i finished a reaction on 6 topics.

whoa.. whatta looong day but i'm not as tired as i expected

LSGH... oh i miss the High school days ...proms, balls, fairs, dances... :( where have all the quality boys gone? tsk tsk...

hey guys.. maniwala kayo.. hindi ako si samantha

You Are Most Like Charlotte!

You are the ultimate romantic idealist You've been hurt before, but that hasn't caused you to give up on love. If anything, your resolve to fall in love is stronger than ever. And it's this feminine optimism that men find most appealing about you. Romantic prediction: That guy you are seeing (or crushing on)? Could be very serious - if you play your cards right!

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

Wag mag text pag laseng!!!

Mood: exhilarated
Listening to: Put 'em high - stonebridge... House Rocks!!!

i dunno if this is just too much caffeine for the day or the discovery of that song Cappy and i have been trying to uncover for more than 2 months now or what.. but i'm feeling super different than my pathetic self yesterday (technically last sunday).

probably this will give you an idea why... an exerpt of my conversation with my dear friend Emerald Green... (she knows who she is)

Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:14 PM): at alam mo narealize ko
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:20 PM): hindi ko pala love si M***** tlaga
Emerald Green (1/9/2006 6:23:43 PM): kasi?
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:52 PM): parang feeling ko lng masyadong natapakan ang pride ko dahil nag karon sha ng gf** dun sa mga panahong akala ko ay akin sha
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:52 PM): :))
Emerald Green (1/9/2006 6:23:54 PM): hay pero nasabi mo na
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:56 PM): ang labo di ba
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:23:58 PM): pero oo nga
Emerald Green(1/9/2006 6:24:08 PM): ayan nga sabi ko wag magtetext
Emerald Green(1/9/2006 6:24:11 PM): :))
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:24:15 PM): pero at least sa sarili ko naprove ko ang totoo
Sun Goddess(1/9/2006 6:24:30 PM): pag binawi ko sa knya baka hindi maniwala si gago... pero hell i care
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:24:46 PM): para nman isipin nyang hindi sha super ***** kaht ***** sha
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:24:47 PM): :))
Emerald Green (1/9/2006 6:24:49 PM): hahaha feeling nya naglalasing ka para maggetover sya
Emerald Green (1/9/2006 6:25:04 PM): at sumusuka pa
Emerald Green(1/9/2006 6:25:05 PM): :))
Sun Goddess (1/9/2006 6:25:23 PM): well... kinda.... naglasing nman tlaga ko upang mapaligaya ang sarili ko nung panahong down ako sa knya.. pero un nga..
Sun Goddess(1/9/2006 6:25:45 PM): naging clear din ang utak ko matapos maalis ang emotional baggage chuva est

**fyi... wla na rin sila.. mga 3 days lang ata

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Girlies!!! next time u wanna get drunk... drink it with style try my fave drink :D

Strawberry Daiquiri

Ingredients:

• 7-Up
• 2 tablespoons grenadine
• Cherry

Directions:

In a tall glass with ice, pour 2 tablespoons grenadine. Fill with 7-up and garnish with a cherry.

Scale ingredients to servings

• 1/2 oz strawberry schnapps
• 1 oz light rum
• 1 oz lime juice
• 1 tsp powdered sugar
• 1 oz strawberries

Shake all ingredients with ice, strain into a cocktail glass, and serve.

PRIME hangover

Mood: incredibly normal
Listening to: nothing (@ the library)

i'm in between classes and i plan to skip lunch.. to make my time worthwhile, i'm doing this one thing i love most aside from sleeping..(i hate u if you're thinking otherwise!) and it is BLOGGING

yesterday was one hell of a day...! lemme just do a recap.. i was so fucked up, i got drunk while i was on YM with jemma. we were both in our melancholic modes and i slowly got tipsy. jem decided that i was a crappy conv-mate and decided to let me go.
i go up to my room to try to get a shut-eye before we go to mass.
my head was sssooooo in a whirl that i couldnt. this caused me to run to my bathroom and barf.
to rid my mouth of the awful taste of bile (is it?) i drank water from the tap water of my sink! how crazy is that?
then i felt so sick once again, i sit on my toilet and rest my head on my sink.... and guess what...?! i fall asleep.. i was just awoken by my sister who comes up to my room.
upon discovering that i stained my shorts,i take them off and sleep only in my undies.. now this is perfectly normal for me... but leaving the door open was a different story...
yikes... i was still able to go to mass and thank Jesus (jem, hope ur reading this) after taking a short nap and taking a cold shower.

btw, i watched PRIME again.. i'm still so into it. [and the musical score is superb also] watching it, however, brought me to realization how lucky i am. in the movie, Thurman's character became so dependent on her psycho-analyst that gave her unconventional relationship a lil more twist for the story. --which did wonders in giving the movie more humor.
but for me, i need no therapist.... i've got friends and they don't charge me for their time! they're always there to share with me all my triumphs, to listen to my every aspiration and most especially to hit me in the head whenever i screw up.
jem thanks for yesterday! :D

today i'm feeling so fine... never been better! i've had my tear-fix induced by some alcoholic substance.. and i feel great... now i'm back in the game and ready to take on the world... :D

NOTICE TO THE PUBLIC:

i ain't sayin im a goldigga, but i ain't messin wid no broke!

in her PRIME devastation

Mood: puzzled and depressed
Listening to: Happy (i wanna be happy) - squareheads

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in increment to school hopping w/ edward for our thesis.. school has brought nothing but misery to me this entire first week of the year... sigh... we've covered 3 out of the 20 interviews we're supposed to finish by end of January, waiting for 2 pending interviews and dealt with one painful rejection from our first attempt.

and if our teacher, ms. ***** isn't a the b*tchiest old hag there is, then i don't know who else is. i just spent my thursday evening and the entire morning of friday reviewing for my exam that day... and i still am not sure if i did well... grabe.. all that effort! makes me think tuloy that i should've just spent the whole night sleeping and whole morning making myself fab>> para kahit bagsak ako pretty ako di ba?

Friday evening i spent with my high school class from Assumption, section 3 2001 - da bomb! we had dinner at Misato, Metrowalk Ortigas. i was especially thrilled to see Margel, she was my barkada in highschool and i haven't seen her nor had any exchange with her for the longest time. the girl's and i are planning to go to this speed dating in White Plains in support of Michi's cause. :D

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Section 3 '01 at Misato Metrowalk... 5 years after

I just saw the movie Prime. starring Meryl Streep, Uma Thurman, Bryan Greenberg. i highly recommend it. it's a romantic comedy about a newly-divorced woman, Thurman 37, falling in love with a young aspiring artist, Greenberg 23. Streep plays the role of a rather paranoid mother to Greenberg and simultaneously being the professional shrink to Streep-- imagine that you're a mom to a 23-year old son who's dating your newly-divorced patient... and she's talking about how they badabing badaboom! :D crazy fun!

*PRIME*

Sun Goddess Rating: ***** 5 Suns

believe it i could relate with the movie.. actually this is one of those bizarre moments that i find myself on the brink of tears watching a movie with a genre like this. i did say it is romantic comedy right? well frankly i could relate to it. i mean, i've dated several (and i mean several!) guys younger than myself--not as much as 14 years though. well anyway, going back to my point. it's tough when u date someone younger, you're bombarded with questions of their maturity, their sense of commitment, their financial capabilities [para sa nakaka gets.. shut up for ur own good!] and all other concerns; still you hang on with the hope that love can conquer barriers of every crappy kind... to that i can very well relate. i can also relate to the feeling of being so in love you couldn't give a damn if the world thinks otherwise... or so i think, or so i wish that's how i'm feeling. i feel so broken. i made a stupid mistake of placing emotions on the line (again!? -idiota!).. another situation i misconstrued and now i feel like i'm in this deep pit and my world is almost falling apart. now i'm starting to believe karma. what's gone around came around!
to add insult to injury.. my random media player skips out of my happy beach music and plays The Tower by Vienna Teng. (c/0 Carlo).. so i go from Ms. Pina Colada to the pathetic "flower trying to bloom in snow" in a matter of days.. *heavy sigh...*

The Tower

by Vienna Teng

the one who survives by making the lives
of others worthwhile
she's coming apart
right before my eyes
the one who depends on the services she renders
to those who come knocking
she's seeing too clearly what she can't be
what understanding defies

she says I need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
but now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow

she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her
and watches the dusk
the words won't come
she carries the act so convincingly the fact is
sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done

reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can change me
where is the one
the one
the one

reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can save me
where is the one
the one
the one

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so right now i'm drinking red horse alone under the pretense of an alternative source of mefanamic acid to alleviate period pains... but God knows how broken i'm feeling. :(

Pina Colada

this morning i woke up to this song.. i've heard it and liked it so many times before but i just listened to the words carefully and i love it... well... fyi.. i'm this girl.. haha.. now i just need someone to sing it.. LOL

listen to pina colada

*Pinacolada*
By Rupert Holmes

I was tired of my lady
We'd been together too long
Like a worn-out recording
Of a favorite song
So while she lay there sleeping
I read the paper in bed
And in the personal columns
There was this letter I read

"If you like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
If you're not into yoga
If you have half a brain
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes on the Cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for
Write to me and escape."

I didn't think about my lady
I know that sounds kind of mean
But me and my old lady
Have fallen into the same old dull routine
So I wrote to the paper
Took out a personal ad
And though I'm nobody's poet
I thought it wasn't half bad

"Yes I like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
I'm not much into health food
I am into champagne
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon
And cut through all this red-tape
At a bar called O'Malley's
Where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes
And she walked in the place
I knew her smile in an instant
I knew the curve of her face
It was my own lovely lady
And she said, "Oh it's you."
Then we laughed for a moment
And I said, "I never knew."

That you like Pina Coladas
Getting caught in the rain
And the feel of the ocean
And the taste of champagne
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes of the Cape
You're the lady I've looked for
Come with me and escape

repeat chorus twice and fade out

before i go back to norm

awww.... im gonna miss being a bum... but i have to go back to normal by tomorrow

well anyway... during the new year bang... our poor aga was under our PC table terrified of the new year noise...

today i had lunch with marts, he just came back from his x'mas holiday in tacloban.

yesterday i went to mass with my family and then there's this woman later 40s-early50s... and i know exactly who she is... Josh's mom.... read this post for reference to josh ... well, after the mass i surprised her w/ a "happy new year greeting and the sweetest smile and she smiled back... Josh wasnt w/ her and she doesnt know me. but she greeted me back w/ a smile... now back in the car, my sister tells this story to my dad and he goes: "that's my girl!"... naks.. hanep sa suporta! haha

i can't wait to grab the new ish of Cosmo Mag for january.

Welcome 2006!!!

mood: reminiscent
listening to: song of the year- Ever After by Bonnie Bailey

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

how time flies when you're enjoying huh? as i look back, i remember starting the year 2005 with laarni and saying we're gonna make the year a worthwhile one. after coming from a very crappy 2004, we declared it to be the year of the lionesses (leo females- jem, that would include u then). and for me it definitely was.

for me year 2005 was a worthwhile one. this is the year when i've felt the happiest in my entire college life in UP Diliman. when i've met and bonded with real friends and realized my self worth. i've failed and risen up with a bang. i've set my priorities and clarified my goals and my plans for the future.

in terms of gimiks and trips... this by far is the greatest year.. well of course this is also due to the fact that i'm older and more responsible to handle some gimiks that i wasn't allowed to go to when i was younger, huh?

as for heart breaks.. thank god i didnt have one this year... well i didnt' have a boyfriend in the first place. but i had a lot of reasons to make my heart speed up. :D for me that is even more fun than having a boyfriend which i wasnt even ready for the past year anyway.... this year i am... wink wink!

now that it's really over, perhaps this is the perfect time to thank everyone who's made my past year such a wonderful one. Sisqo, Charade, TS, Jodera, Cosmo and of course, my family... and all other friends.. u know who u are. 2005 really was my year. :D

Sun Goddess welcomes the new year!!! everybody rock!